Fathwa, - I am impatient and awaiting to perform umrah.

Question:
I am currently a 19-year old girl, and compared to many people still
very young.For 2 years now I have been waiting to go to Saudi Arabia
and wanting to perform umrah.
But I have not been able to. I was born a Muslim and a follow Islam
from my own heart. However, I am currently a practicing Muslim and
have been praying namaz everyday for 2 years now. I started wearingthe
hijaab 1 year ago.
I have not had a great upbringing and I have not always been perfect.
However, eachand everyday when I make duaa, I pray I go to do umrah. I
am nowfinancially stable, and Ihave not committed any sins and I
believe I am the best I can be at this moment of this life as a
Muslim.
A question that approaches my mind is I ask to be called to Makkah but
have not yet been. Many keep saying you will be called when it is your
time, but I have never wanted anything more. I was meant to come with
someone but he won't take me as he only wants to take his own wife and
child.
Every time I think about umrah I start crying. I had my hopes up and
thought I would go this Ramadan. I currently have no mehram and so no
plans.
I don't know what to do, because I keep getting upset and thinking if
I am being a good Muslim why is my duaa to come to Makkah not being
fulfilled. I do not know if I am being selfish and asking for this.
ButI do not know what to do or who to talk to. I find it hard to talk
to family members aboutthis, as I don't think anyone understands me.
Answer:
In the Name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
Praise be to Allah. May Allah's peace and blessings bestow upon our
beloved Prophet, his family, and companions.
Dear Sister,
I pray this finds you in good health and spirits.
I completely sympathize with your desire to visit the House of Allah.
My advice to you about dua is to remember the following:
Dua or supplication is a very powerful means of communicating your
needs and desires to Allah Most High. Don't despair that your
prayershaven't been answered. We cannot guarantee the outcome of our
prayers. Rather, we pray sincerely, take the necessary steps to
achieve our goals, and leave the rest to Allah.
If He has decreed that you will visit His House, then nothing can
prevent you from going. Likewise, if He has decreed that you will
notmake umrah, no earthly power can change this.
One of the most important aspects of iman is being contented with
Allah's qadr, or divine decree. If you are not able to make umrah,
then you will not be heldresponsible. It's important to have the
intention to do umrah because, as the Prophet (peace be upon him)
said, "Actions are according to intentions."
As a young woman, you have to consider the practical aspects of
traveling. The general consensus of the four Sunni schools of law is
that it is impermissible for a woman to undertake a long journey
without a husband or mahram. TheShafi'i and Maliki Schoolsdo allow a
special dispensation for a woman who performs anobligatory hajj (her
first hajj) with a group of upright people.
Umrah is not obligatory for Hanafis, but is an emphasized Sunna. If I
may suggest, it may be better to focus your energies on Hajj. A lot of
people put off Hajj, thinking they'll make it when they're older. The
only problem is they've accumulated so much debt by that time that
they still can't go!
Don't lose hope. You're still young. Focus your energies on
establishing your deen, learning about your religion, and bringing
your life into accord with what the Prophet (peace be upon him) gave
us. Allah willing, this will open up the doors of tawfiq, or true
success.
Allah Most High hears your prayers. He responds in many different ways.