Story - Dilemma. Heart broken

Heartbroken seems to be something common in my life. Hi dear readers,
I would like to share a story of mine which everything started when I
was in my school age. Had this sweet cute love for 5 years when
everything ended up because he cheated on me. An express love story to
start my life huh? I proceeded my life until I got into college. I
found someone who's really kind and sincere to me. He did really cared
bout me and helped almost everything when I just started my college
life. Hewas 4 years older than me and we really had great time. But my
life didn't get that easy whenI suddenly fell in love with this guy,A.
Yes, its my fault but I never felt such a deep love with anyone like
A. As for result, I left the guy who's older than me and I went with
A. Our life was like the most happiest couple ever had. We really know
eachother well, we even had the same family background which kinda
complicated. its like when I'm with him, its like I'm in the other
world which there's no one else but us. Happily ever after feeling. I
soon realised that life couldn't be more easier when I really had my
karma.
A told me that he wantedto take his time because of his studies and
wantedto enjoy his life cz he didn't want to regret it later on(which
I thought was bullshit). He just left me and without any news of him,
sooner I found that he did went out with some girls. My heart was
totally crushed and I was kinda insane for like a month. Come and go
is want the life is, a guy which I never met eventhough we were in the
same programmme for 3 years,suddenly wishes to be friend with me. We
became friends and he started to confess his feelings towards me.
Ifelt kinda guilty to give a straight no. So I did accept to be his gf
but forthe time being I told him that I didn't had those kinda feeling
towards him cz I was too afraid tolove someone again.
With no second guess, heaccepted and we proceed our relationship for
almost a year. After a chat and some memories,I started to had those
feelings towards my bf. The problem is now, my current bf did
something which really made me dissapointed. From what he did to me,
as if like I'msomeone with no dignity.Not just enough with those
problems, suddenlyguy A came back to me and asking me forgiveness. A
told me that he was too dumb and too ego to realize everything he did
was wrong.
Now I'm in dilemma. I do love my bf, but I really loved A so much.
Yeah forsure my bf has a totally different family background which I
was really comfort with their ways for accepting me and he do love me.
But with A was different, it was just love. I could onlygive love as
my reason for wanting him. I alwaysthought that if I really do love my
bf that much, I wouldn't be this hard to choose between both of them.
Means that my loveis not that much for my bf as my love for A??
Currently I couldn't choose either one of them. I'm afraid that I
would regret someday and I really don't wanna break any of their
hearts.I told both of them that I just want to be friends with them.
Just like me and my other friends. To ease this story, A is my ex
which he left me but I really do love him with all my heart. He is
kinda flirting type with other woman. My bf is kind andinnocent guy
who just made me dissapointed and make me feel like no dignity. Now
the point is I know that I should choose my bf rather than A. But my
love towards A is making me hard to decide. I really don't wanna
regret and love someonelse while I'm married with another guy. I just
couldn't decidewho I should give the second chance. One who left me,
one who made me felt like I'm such a cheap girl. I'm totally in
dilemma. Any advice would be really a help forme. For sure a divorce
after marriage is a no for me because my previous life from a divorced
family.
Please. Help.

'Replace capitalism with Islamic system’

Board members of the Al Quds)Jerusalem( International Institution
including Attallah)second from left(, Mishal )fourth from left( and
Qaradawi )third from right
Doha-based Islamic scholar Sheikh Yusuf al-Qaradawi has urged Muslim
countries to take advantage of the global financial crisis and build a
new fiscal system which is compatible with Islamic principles.
"We have our own economic philosophy and system which others do not
have. The collapse of the capitalist system, which is based on usury
and securities rather than commodities in markets, shows us that it is
undergoing a crisis and that our integrated Islamic philosophy, if
properly understood and applied,can replace the Western capitalism,"
he said.
"We have all the means of power.We have an abundance of economic and
human resources. If we know how to make the best use of the
opportunity, Muslim countries can build a newsystem among themselves,"
he said.
Qaradawi who was speaking at the opening of the sixth annual meeting
of the Al Quds)Jerusalem( International Institution which got under
way in Doha yesterday, also urged the Palestinian Hamas and Fatah
movement to be "united" for achieving the hope of wresting the control
of Jerusalem from theIsraelis.
"I call on both our brother Khalid Mishal )the head of Hamas( and our
friend Abu Mazin )the Palestinian president( to meet and seek
reconciliation so that they can achieve our hopes. It is not true that
Israel is invincible. We are able to conquer and we will do."
The scholar also warned against what he called "Israel's ongoing
excavations under the Al Aqsa Mosque."
Mishal, the Damascus-based chief of Hamas Political Bureau, raised
doubts about the possibility of reaching any settlement with Israel
via negotiation.
"What should be very clear is thatregaining control of Al Quds and the
any other usurped Palestinianrights would be impossible through
negotiation. Even for thePalestinians refugees' right to return,
Israel does not want evento admit the moral responsibility of
deporting them," he said.
Mishal also blamed both the US and Israel for the "division between
the Palestinian factions"saying that the US and Israel were putting
obstacles in the way of any possible settlement between the
Palestinians.
"It is America which undermined the Makkah peace deal. But now both
America and Israel are embroiled in their internal problems," he said,
while observing that the Hamas movement delegate, who is currently in
Cairo, has a reconciliation formula to form a government of national
unity.
The three-day meeting will seek to garner support for the protection
of Jerusalem and its holy sites against what they call "Israeli
attempts to Judaise the city and its holy cities."
The meeting brought together some 300 personalities from different
countries as well as NGOs which convened in Doha to discuss ways to
protect and conserve the heritage of Jerusalem.

High food costs 'a global burden'

Almost two-thirds of people - 60% - in 26 countries say higher food
and energy prices this year have affected them "a great deal", a BBC
report has found.
The BBC World Service global study said that while all nations had
felt the burden of the higher costs, the problem was most acute in
poorer countries.
The Philippines was one of the worst hit of those nations questioned.
Elsewhere, the aid agency Oxfam said more than 900 million people
faced starvation because of soaring prices.
A report by the UK-based charity also found that spiraling inflationin
the cost of basic foods like rice and cereals had pushed an extra 119
million people into hunger this year.
Since the BBC survey was conducted between 8 July and 15 September,
energy prices have fallen back from record highs.
Food costs are also now expectedto start to decline, as lower oil and
petrol prices mean cheaper fertilizer and reduced distributioncosts,
among other contributory factors.
Eating less
The study found that many people in the developing world have simply
been forced to eat less this year owing to the highercost of food.
This situation was most acute in the Philippines and Panama, where 63%
of respondents said they had cut back on what they eat.
Kenya was the next most affected, with 61% saying they were eating
less, followed by Nigeria, at 58%.
Across all 26 countries, 43% of people said they have had alteredtheir diet.
This was most apparent in Panama, with 71% switching to cheaper foods,
followed by Egypt,67%, Kenya, 64%, and again, the Philippines, 63%.
'Unhappy'
In the developing world, 27% of those questioned in Australia said
they were now cutting back on what they eat due to higher prices,
compared with 25% in theUK, and 10% in Germany.
The survey also showed that 70% of people across the world
were"unhappy with what their national government is doing to keep food
prices affordable".
Dissatisfaction at a perceived lackof government action to tackle food
prices was most apparent inEgypt, where 88% of those questioned said
they were unhappy with their leaders, followed by the Philippines, on
86%, and Lebanon, on 85%.
In the developed world, the French respondents were the most
dissatisfied with their government, with 79% saying they were unhappy.
Energy woes
Respondents were equally unhappy at higher energy costs, which
increased sharply in the first half of this year, but are nowfalling
back.
Some 60% of people across the 26 nations saying they were being
affected "a great deal", exactly the same percentage as for higher
food costs.
The Philippines was again the worst hit nation, with 96% sayingthey
were being hit a great deal, followed by Egypt on 93%, Indonesia on
84%, Kenya on 83%,and Mexico on 81%.
Majorities in several developed countries also said they were being
affected a great deal by higher energy costs - 61% in Italy,59% in
France, and 58% in the US.
Doug Miller, chairman of polling firm GlobeScan, which co-conducted
the survey for the BBC, said the problem of higher food and energy
bills was being overshadowed by the continuing crisis in the financial
sector.
"While governments around the world are now preoccupied with the
financial crisis, it is clear that many of their citizens feel they
aren't doing enough to relieve the burden of high food prices, which
is falling on those who canleast afford it," he said.
The Philippines has been particularly affected by higher food prices
this year, as with its rapidly growing population and shortage of
suitable land for crops, it is the world's largest importer of rice.
Rice prices soared to record highsin the first half of 2008 due to a
series of poor harvests that saw major exporters such as Vietnam and
India put limits on exports toensure sufficient supplies for their own
populations.
The BBC's economics correspondent, Andrew Walker, said that there were
reasons to suppose the food crisis may have eased somewhat.
But for many people it was still the case that food was painfully,
even dangerously expensive, said our correspondent.
The survey spoke to 27,319 adultsin the following countries -
Australia, Brazil, Canada, China, Costa Rica, Egypt, France, Germany,
India, Indonesia, Italy, Kenya, Lebanon, Mexico, Nigeria, Pakistan,
Panama, Philippines, Poland, Russia, South Korea, Spain, Turkey, UAE,
US, and the UK.
It was co-conducted by the Program on International Policy Attitudes.

Asian tsunami 'not the first'

The 2004 Indian Ocean tsunami that devastated large parts of Asia was
not the first and will likely not be the last, two separate geological
studies have found.
Geologists analyzing rocks in coastal marshes in the region found that
a massive wave struckthe same area about 700 years ago, the British
science magazineNature reported in its latest edition.
The studies pointed to large deposits of sand washed inland by the
ancient waves and preserved under layers of coastal peat.
Scientists behind the study say the findings offer more reason
toeducate people living along vulnerable coastal regions about the
danger from tsunamis.
"Tsunamis are something we never experienced before and after 2004,
people thought it wassomething we would never experience again,"
Kruawun Jankaew of Thailand's Chulalongkorn University told Reuters.
"But from this, we are able to identify that the place has been hit by
a mega tsunami in the past. So even though it is infrequent for this
part of the world, it still happens and there is a need to promote
tsunami education for coastal peoples."
He said that two more layers of sand were found under the 1400 layer,
but more carbon dating studies would be needed before scientists could
tell when they were deposited.
Almost a quarter of a million people died in the 2004 tsunami, most of
them in the Indonesian province of Aceh, southern Thailand and Sri
Lanka.
Many hundreds of thousands more lost their homes and livelihoods.
The deadly wave was triggered by a massive undersea earthquake off the
island of Sumatra.
Some analysts blame the massiveloss of life of ignorance of the
region's tsunami history, becausefew people living along the affected
coasts recognized natural tsunami warning signs.
Such signs include the strong shaking felt in Aceh and the sudden,
rapid retreat of the sea that was observed in Thailand.
Many residents of one island off the coast of Aceh are believed to owe
their survival in 2004 to the local community's oral history
traditions, which have related stories through the generations of a
devastating tsunami which hit in 1907.