'' Our Lord ! grant us good in this world and good in the hereafter and save us from the torment of the Fire '' [Ameen]
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{in Arab} :->
Rabbanaa aatinaa fid-dunyaa hasanatan wafil aakhirati hasanatan waqinaa 'athaaban-naar/-
(Surah Al-Baqarah ,verse 201)
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I would like to share a story of mine which everything started when I
was in my school age. Had this sweet cute love for 5 years when
everything ended up because he cheated on me. An express love story to
start my life huh? I proceeded my life until I got into college. I
found someone who's really kind and sincere to me. He did really cared
bout me and helped almost everything when I just started my college
life. Hewas 4 years older than me and we really had great time. But my
life didn't get that easy whenI suddenly fell in love with this guy,A.
Yes, its my fault but I never felt such a deep love with anyone like
A. As for result, I left the guy who's older than me and I went with
A. Our life was like the most happiest couple ever had. We really know
eachother well, we even had the same family background which kinda
complicated. its like when I'm with him, its like I'm in the other
world which there's no one else but us. Happily ever after feeling. I
soon realised that life couldn't be more easier when I really had my
karma.
A told me that he wantedto take his time because of his studies and
wantedto enjoy his life cz he didn't want to regret it later on(which
I thought was bullshit). He just left me and without any news of him,
sooner I found that he did went out with some girls. My heart was
totally crushed and I was kinda insane for like a month. Come and go
is want the life is, a guy which I never met eventhough we were in the
same programmme for 3 years,suddenly wishes to be friend with me. We
became friends and he started to confess his feelings towards me.
Ifelt kinda guilty to give a straight no. So I did accept to be his gf
but forthe time being I told him that I didn't had those kinda feeling
towards him cz I was too afraid tolove someone again.
With no second guess, heaccepted and we proceed our relationship for
almost a year. After a chat and some memories,I started to had those
feelings towards my bf. The problem is now, my current bf did
something which really made me dissapointed. From what he did to me,
as if like I'msomeone with no dignity.Not just enough with those
problems, suddenlyguy A came back to me and asking me forgiveness. A
told me that he was too dumb and too ego to realize everything he did
was wrong.
Now I'm in dilemma. I do love my bf, but I really loved A so much.
Yeah forsure my bf has a totally different family background which I
was really comfort with their ways for accepting me and he do love me.
But with A was different, it was just love. I could onlygive love as
my reason for wanting him. I alwaysthought that if I really do love my
bf that much, I wouldn't be this hard to choose between both of them.
Means that my loveis not that much for my bf as my love for A??
Currently I couldn't choose either one of them. I'm afraid that I
would regret someday and I really don't wanna break any of their
hearts.I told both of them that I just want to be friends with them.
Just like me and my other friends. To ease this story, A is my ex
which he left me but I really do love him with all my heart. He is
kinda flirting type with other woman. My bf is kind andinnocent guy
who just made me dissapointed and make me feel like no dignity. Now
the point is I know that I should choose my bf rather than A. But my
love towards A is making me hard to decide. I really don't wanna
regret and love someonelse while I'm married with another guy. I just
couldn't decidewho I should give the second chance. One who left me,
one who made me felt like I'm such a cheap girl. I'm totally in
dilemma. Any advice would be really a help forme. For sure a divorce
after marriage is a no for me because my previous life from a divorced
family.
Please. Help.
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