'' Our Lord ! grant us good in this world and good in the hereafter and save us from the torment of the Fire '' [Ameen]
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{in Arab} :->
Rabbanaa aatinaa fid-dunyaa hasanatan wafil aakhirati hasanatan waqinaa 'athaaban-naar/-
(Surah Al-Baqarah ,verse 201)
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Three years ago I was 23 years old and very unhappy. I had just left a
rich, non-committed manwho wanted to marry meand gave me everything
Ineeded.
But one day, April 1 it was and just like in a joke I left him. There
was a reason and quite a serious one. He wanted to own me. Leaving him
meant losing my job (because I worked for him), my love, my comfort
and money.
Another man helped me leave him; he was the third man in my life. I
was madly in love with him. I simply adored him.Two months after we
began dating, his ex-girlfriend called him and told him she was
pregnant. He went crazy. He began behaving weird. He didn't know what
to do. Go to her or stay with me. At the end, he left me.
I cried myself out. For months and maybe years.
I started dating other men and hurting them. For only a year I went to
bed with 5 men and left them in the worst possible way. I made them
cry and beg me.
I felt nothing. I was the cruelest being in the world. My heart was
broken and I found no meaning of life. But at a certain point I calmed
down. I forgot the man that left me. He married that woman he left me
for. I lost him forever andI knew I needed to move forward and to go
back to normal, to somehow save my soul.
Weird enough after this so called balance, Paco appeared. I was at a
bar and he approached and started talking to me. We spent our time
together until 4 am and we couldn't get enough of each other. It was
hard atthe beginning. He had just been abandoned by a woman he was 5
years with. So he was being mean to me. But I knew best what he felt
and waited for the moment he would reach that calmness that I felt and
everything will be perfect. Yes, I waited for him to go through that
same hell I did, through the same agony for the unrequited love and I
don't feel sorry about it. Because now I have next to me the man I can
rely on totally. I love him and I cannot imagine my life without him.
We have our wedding planned in 3 months time, exactly two years after
we met. And I think that happiness comes alone tous, without looking
or crying for it. The only thing we need is to be at peace with
ourselves.
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And Allah Knows the Best!
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M NajimudeeN Bsc- INDIA
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