Love knows when to let go

About 6months ago this guy who i was in a long distance relationship
with broke up with me over facebook. I had no other choice but to give
in to what he wanted because i knew that he didnt love me anymore the
same way he used to.
A month after that i met this guy at a church get together whilst
trying to move on from the brokenrelationship i recently was in. He
broke the ice, by giving a compliment on a talk i gave out that day. I
was on cloud nine indeed. I went home thatday with the image of the
stranger lingering in my head; i couldnt stop thinking of him. I had
false doubts about him because he was from another country but was
popular and successful in his career as a singer andmusician. I was
nothing compared to him; i was beaten up by my own thoughts that i
tried to forget about him. Unfortunately it didnt work. One night i
was watching this popular singing competition in my country and wa-lah
he was one of the competitors. The same night, i was on facebook when
his page was suggested. I didnt add him straight instead i sent him a
message to congratulate him on his performance and simply to return
the favour.
It felt soooo random for me to do that still i did. I sent that
message but wasnt expecting a reply. Two weeks later, i got a message
from him and this time he left his phone number. So i took my chances
and text him. We started chatting on and off since that day it was
late in May then. We would chat about these random stuffs back and
forth leaving me daydreaming of him.
I was completely head over heels not knowing he was starting to feel
the same way for me. (Well that's what he later told me) I was slowly
recovering from the pain i had been in and was slowly giving my heart
away to this guy. He was different (in a good way)He was kindhearted,
loving, caring, down to earth and thoughtful. I couldnt ask for anyone
better. So days went by, there are days that we would meet up at a
random place and spend 2-3hours talking and laughing our heads off
ateach others' jokes. Those magical moments i can never forget. They
made me feel special and truly loved until things started changing.
The competition he was in? Well he won that singing competition. He
deservedit right from the start. After winning, people started
spreading rumours about him dating his runner up. I didnt do or say
anything because i knew i had no right to take rumours from others.
All i wanted was to hear it straight from him, i never had the
intention of judging him i only wanted to find out the truth. But if
what i had been hearing was true then i would let him go. I couldnt be
foolish enough to keep holding on to what is not mine. But as i recall
the times we'd spent together and the whole lot of exchanging texts,
what isstarting to happen is so very impossible. In the way that he'd
say all these things (that he wants to be with no one else but me,
that he's loving me forever, that he'll try everything in his power so
i could feel loved and special) It's justnot fair..
Days and weeks went by istarted not hearing from him instead rumours
widely spreaded. That he had changed alot! I couldnt believe what i
was hearing. I was hurting inside but still i was breathing. And so
one day, i saw them together at a car park in town. He didnt see me
but i saw them clearly from my position. Seeing them settled my
uncertainties, all the questions i had. Finally i was in peace, Guess
it's really time that i let him go; that i forget about him. But one
thing for sure is, i will never forgetthe special times we've spent
together, the way he made me feel, how hetreated me like the only girl
he sees. I still love him but i have to let him go. He seemed happy
with her and there's nothing more that i would want to see than seeing
him happy. After everytime we'd spent together Im left with an
everlasting impression.
Maybe we weren't meantfor each other. He may bethe sun and i the ocean
therefore in his eyes, i belong somewhere else. Ipray that happiness
and peace fills his everyday..