Story - It hurts….

Hi, friends.
I thought that I had overcome this. I believed that I got it over and
I was going to continue forward. But there are moments when pain
clutches me and I miss him…. Our relationship lasted quite long
considering the fact that we were married. We loved each other
withoutmaking promises. We knew that if we had changed our relations,
magic would have disappeared. The thought of divorcing my husband and
marrying him has never crossed mymind. We are grown up people with
realistic outlook after all.
The time that I spent withhim was very precious to me because this
wasn't a trivial adultery story. It was love – tender and passionate,
filled with trust and laughter, a bright harbour where wefound shelter
from daily problems… I loved him very much in the knowledge that I
love myhusband more (yes, It's possible to love two men at the same
time) Finally, I decided that I was getting too irresponsible and I
was not that type ofperson. We tried to part from each other for
months. I went away andthen came back again, allburning with passion.
Months went by while I was gathering strength to leave him forever. I
obtained my wish.
We are not seeing each other anymore. But I misshim…
How can you forget something that was so important to you? I lost a
part of myself. I know this was the right decision.
I'm happy with my husband I would replace him under no circumstances.
But how can I stop the pain of thinking about the other man. He ran
into my soul as a prickle…
If my jumbled story has made any sense to somebody – please leave a
comment. I think I'm not looking for a piece ofadvice because I've
tried almost everything. My only hope is in the courseof time. Still,
I want to hear a word from an outsider. The truth is out there….