stories» I think i dont have a heart to love

my story starts from long time ago when i was 19. i fall in love with
a boy who was my first love. i loved him so much but unfortunately he
didnt and he doesnt like me what so ever, which was so understanable
this time.
after the years i was still thinkin eventhough i hada boyfriend and
argued about it once. when i was 21 i left my home town to london to
study, but i couldnt left without saying to him goodbye, so i called
his home and tried to talk to him, but his mom said he went to london
to study too. i was shocked asked his email address and when iwent to
london i left him an email saying that im in london i just wanted him
to know that im there, never expected him to reply me back.
maybe i was praying initially wished that to reply me back. he
replyedme and would like to chat with me and so on. after few weeks we
did meet and had lot of fun,i was living in my dream wishing that time
foreverif it could last i was happy all times, but he told me that he
would never see me as his girlfriend or anything because he has one
which is going to engagewith her.
i was shocked and cried many nights and see her pics from his computer
when im with him at his place. which was so hurting mentallly and
psychally. and after 4 months of our romance come to the ending
because he had to go back home for good. so i went to airport to say
bye to him but he just saw me for a secon and left me without saying
any single word.
all this confussion of our affair left with no heart to love to anyone
else. now im 24 still dont have no bf and just keep thinking he stole
my heart forever with him. i try to love someone but i loose my
interest for 2 weeks later. am i psycho or is it just cos i dont
findmy mr right?

Fatimah tuz Zahrã (R.A.)

FATIMAHTUZ ZAHRAH (r.a) – DUAGHTER OF MUHAMMAD(صلى الله عليه وسلم)
Fatimah(R.A.) was youngest in age of all hersisters but highest in
grades. She was dearest to her father of all his daughters. He once
said, "Fatimahis like soul and heart to me." once, he said, "Fatimah
will be theleader of the women in Paradise." he further said, "What
troubles Fatimah troubles me as well."
It was the sixth year of Prophethood and Rasulullah (Sallallahu Alaihi
Wasallam) had launched his preaching mission but his own clan were
impeding in his way. The people of the Quraysh were trying every trick
to trouble him. One day while he was performing Salãh in the Haram, on
the instigation of the pagans of Makkak, Aqabah ibn Moeet brought the
entrails of a camel and placed it on his neck whilst he was
prostrating. Someone told Fatimah (R.A.) who was then just six years
old. She came running and removed the stuff and cursed the
non-believers. She, at such an early age beheld the tribulations and
torments Rasulullah (Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam) was being subject to.
Rasulullah (Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam) awarded her the title of 'lady
of Paradise'.
It has been reported that Rasulullah (Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam) once
said, "On the Day of Resurrection a voice will be heard saying ' lower
you heads, Fatimah bint Muhammad is being escorted along,' then
Fatimah will cross the pathway to Paradise in a flash leading seventy
thousand Hoors (heavenly women)."
Rasulullah (Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam) confided only to Fatimah
(R.A.) during his last days that he would die of his illness. She wept
to hear that but Rasulullah (Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam) whispered to
her that she would follow him which brought delight on her face and
she smiled.
Rasulullah's (Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam) beloved wives pressed her
much to disclose that secret, but she didn't. She revealed it, however
after his demise.

Hazrat Aisha (R.A)

The life of HazratAisha(Radhiyallahu-Anha) is proof that a woman can
be far more learned than men and that she can be the teacher of
scholars and experts. Her life is also proof that the same woman can
be totally feminine and be a sourceof pleasure, joy and comfort to her
husband.
In her youth, already known for her striking beauty and her formidable
memory,Aishacame under the loving care and attentionof the Holy
Prophet Muhammad(Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) himself.As his wife and
close companion she acquired from him knowledge andinsight such as no
woman has acquired.
HazratAisha(Radhiyallahu-Anha) was born as a Muslim. She says: "When I
got to the age of understanding myparents were already Muslims." From
this is it clear that not even a brink of Kufr was shadowed upon her.
Married Life of Hazrat Aisha
Hazrat Aisha (Radhiyallahu-Anha) became the Holy Prophet's
(Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) wife in Makkahwhen she was in the sixth
year of her life but her wedding did not take place until the second
year after the Hijrah when she was about nine or ten. About her
wedding, she related that: "Shortly before she was to leave her
parent's house, she slipped out into the courtyard to playwith a
passing friend. I was playing on a see-sawand my long streaming hair
was dishevelled." She further says: "They came and took me from my
play and made me ready."
Marriage to the Holy Prophet (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) did not
change her playful ways. Her young friends came to visit her regularly
in her own apartment. Hazrat Aisha (Radhiyallahu-Anha) had her life to
the Prophet (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam).
Once the Prophet (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) went somewhere at night.
When Hazrat Aisha's (Radhiyallahu-Anha) eyesopened she did not find
the Prophet (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) present,so she was very
disturbed. She started searching for him in the darkness. Finally her
hand touched the foot of the Prophet (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam), who
was in prostration, and she was very relieved.
The bulk of her vast treasure of knowledge was obtained while she was
quite young. There are 2210 traditions narrated from her.
Hazrat Aisha's Students
Hazrat Aisha's (Radhiyallahu-Anha) students were approximately 200,
out of which were: Hazrat Abu Hurairah, Hazrat Abu Musa Ashari, Hazrat
Abdullah ibn Abbas and Hazrat Abdullah ibn Zubair
(Radhiyallahu-Anhum).
When the Holy Prophet (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) was on his death
bed, he had his head on Hazrat Aisha's (Radhiyallahu-Anha) lap. At the
time of the Holy Prophet Muhammad's (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) death
she was only eighteen years old.
May Almighty Allah make the women of today act upon the life of Hazrat
Aisha (Radhiyallahu-Anha), Ameen.

Hazrat Sawdah (R.A)

After the demise of Hazrat Khadijah , the Holy Prophet Muhammadwas
much worried and grief stricken. He had to look after his child and
attend to the household chores, adding considerably to the agony of
the death ofhis loving wife. This also caused hindrance in his
Prophetic mission. Seeinghim worried and distressed, Hazrat Khawlah
bint Hakeem , wife of Hazrat Uthman bin Maz'oon , suggested to the
Holy Prophet (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) that he badly needed a
companion to help him in running his house and looking after his
children, and proposed the name of HazratSawdahwho was an elderly
widow.
HazratSawdahand her late husband Hazrat Sakran, were early converts to
Islam, and also had the honour of having migrated to Abyssinia.
Therefore, they were very much close and dear to the Holy Prophet
(Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam). On return from Abyssinia, Hazrat Sakran
(Radhiyallahu-Anhu) passed away. HazratSawdah(Radhiyallahu-Anha) was
now left a forlorn widow with a baby.
On receipt of the suggestion, the Holy Prophet Muhammad
(Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) considered it carefully. The mission of
Prophethood now demanded much time, but due to him being preoccupied
in household affairs, he could not devote enoughtime to his heavenly
mission. He therefore accepted the proposal also taking into
consideration that an early convert toIslammay be helped and honoured,
and approvedHazrat Khawlah (Radhiyallahu-Anha) to negotiate for his
marriagewith Hazrat Sawdah (Radhiyallahu-Anha).
Proposal to Hazrat Sawdah
Khawlah (Radhiyallahu-Anha ) went straight to Hazrat Zum'aa bin Qais ,
the father of Hazrat Sawdah (Radhiyallahu-Anhuma), and after
exchanging compliments conveyed the message ofthe Holy Prophet
Muhammad (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam). Hazrat Zum'aa
(Radhiyallahu-Anhu) was much pleased and remarked that: "Hazrat
Muhammad (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) comes from a very respectable
family and is a perfect gentleman and that any father would feel proud
of marrying his daughterto him." He further suggested to Hazrat
Khawlah that Hazrat Sawdah should also be consulted in this
connection. Hazrat Khawlah then went to Hazrat Sawdah and conveyed the
message ofthe Prophet (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) and added that
Hazrat Sawdah had already obtained the approval of her father for the
marriage. Hazrat Sawdah[Radhiyallahu-Anha ] expressed her consent and
happiness in the marriage. The marriage was settled and Hazrat Sawdah
was married with Prophet Muhammad(Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam ). The
Nikah Khutbah(sermon) was read by Hazrat Sawdah's (Radhiyallahu-Anha)
father himself. Hazrat Sawdah was 55 at the time of this marriage.
By this marriage the house of the Prophet (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam)
was once more aglow with warmth and happiness. Hazrat Fatimah and
Hazrat Umme Kulsoom (Radhiyallahu-Anhuma ) were the two orphaned
daughters of Prophet[s.a.w.] Hazrat Sawdah (Radhiyallahu-Anha) used to
love these two daughters very affectionately, so much so that nobody
could even doubt that she was not their real mother. Hazrat Sawdah
(Radhiyallahu-Anha) had no children from the Prophet
(Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam ) However, from her first husband (Hazrat
Sakran )she had a son named Hazrat Abdur-Rahmaan (Radhiyallahu-Anhu).
He fell a martyr fighting in the battle of Jalula.