1] I Would Like to Repent, But!...http://aydnajimudeen.blogspot.com/

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Dear brother! O slave of Allah! Allah has opened the door of
repentance, sowhy should you not enter? "Repentance has a door whose
span is the distance between East and West," says a hadith; (and in
another version "its span is the distance traveled in 70 years" ). "It
will not be closed until the sun rises from the West."
Listen to the call of Allah: "O My slaves! You sin morning and evening
and I forgive all your sins. So call on Me, I will forgive you all
your sins."
Allah extends His Hands inthe night to forgive the sinner of the day
and extends His Hands in the day to forgive the sinner of the night.
And He loves to hear excuses. So why don't you turn to Him?
How beautiful are the words of the repenting man who says: "I
beseechYou O Lord, in the name of Your honor, and (by) my ignominy
that You have mercy on me. I beseech You in the name of Your Strength
and my weaknesses. Your Self-sufficiency andmy dependence. To you I
submit my sinning, guilty forelock. You havemany slaves apart from me.
But I have no Mastersave you. There isn't anyrefuge but with You nor
escape from You except to You. I plead You O Lord, in the manner of
the pleading of a destitute, and entreat You in the manner of a
broken, downtrodden man. I beseech You in the manner of a blind man in
fear. This is a supplication, O Lord, from one whose head isbowed down
before your Majesty, whose nose is in the dust, whose eyes are filled
with tears and whose heart has submitted."
Consider this story:
It is reported by a trustworthy man of the past that as he was passing
through a street he saw the door of a house open. A woman came out
with a child who was crying and pleading while she was pushing him
out. She left him outside the house and slammed the door shut in his
face. The child left the door and walked a distance. Then he stopped,
looked about, began to think, and not finding any other place but his
own house where he could take shelter nor anyone who would care for
him as his mother would, he returned to his house dejected, sad. He
found the door shut. He sat at the sill, put his cheek on the
threshold and slept with tear marks on his cheeks. He was in this
state when the mother opened the door. When she saw him in this state
she could not control herself. She bent down, grabbed him to herbosom,
began to kiss him and say in tears: "Oh my boy! My dear child! My very
soul! Where were you? Didn't I tell you not to disobey me? Do my
bidding, and don't force me to punish you, while I hate to do that."
Then shecarried the child back and closed the door behind her.
That is the story of a mother and a child: the story of disobedience,
punishment, return, forgiveness and unbound love. But the Prophet,
salla Allah u alihi wa sallam, has told us that: "Allah loves His
creation more than a woman does her child." In fact, there is no
comparison between the love of a mother for her child and that of
Allah whose Mercy encompasses everything. Allah, azza wa jall, is
immensely pleased with aman when he repents andturns to Him. And we
shallnever be deprived of anything by a Lord who ismore pleased with
the repenting man, than that man..
"..who was traveling through an arid land. Hedismounted and took
shelter under a tree seeking some rest. He lay there with his beast,
loaded with food and water, at his side. But when he awoke, lo! The
beast was gone! He began to search for it frantically. He climbed a
hill but couldn't see a trace of it. He climbed another hill and still
no trace of it. Finally, when hunger and thirst overtook him, he said,
'Let me go back to the tree, and lay down thereuntil death overtakes
me.' So he went back to the tree, and lay there with eyes closed - in
total despair. And lo! As he opened his eyes and raised his head,
there the beast was, right before his very eyes, with all the food and
water loaded on it intact! He rushed to it and picked up its halter.
(Can you imagine his happiness) But lo! Allah is happier with a man
when he turns to Him seeking His forgiveness, than the man who found
his beast when he had lost all hopes."
Know it, my dear brother, that true repentance of every sin also
brings with it humility and devotion to Allah, and that pleading of a
penitent is very dear to Allah. So that what follows after repentance
is obedience of a greater degree to the extent that sometimes Satan
regrets that he enticed him into that sin at all. That is why you
willsee that those who repentbecome very much changed personalities.
Allah does not abandon a man who comes to Him a penitent. Compare the
situation with that of a father who used to look after his son with
great love and care, providing him with the best of clothing, food and
toys. Then one day the father sent him on an errand.
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Repentance (tawbah) from stealing--on returning items anonymously

I find it extremely difficultto go back to those whomI had stolen from, nor can I ever confess to them in order to gain their forgiveness. What shall I do?
It is not necessary for you to face the embarrassment of informing them yourself, or offering compensation in person. You can send their dues to them say, bymail, or through another person without revealing your identity. You can also place it in their sight without their knowledge, or say to them if you haveto go in person that"someone" - who doesn't like to reveal his name - says this is your property. In short, the important thing is to return to the people their property.

Repentance (tawbah) for a thief from stealing

How does a thief repent?
If what he has stolen is still in his possession it should be returned to the owner. If it has been used or disposed of, then an amount equivalent to its value should be returned to the owner--unless the owner is willing to forgive.

Repentance (tawbah) - on compensating for acts of worship deliberately neglected in the past

I have neglected many rights of Allah in the past, such as prayers,
fasts, and zakah. Am I required to repeat them or compensate for them?
As far as the five daily prayers are concerned, thepreferred opinion
is that the repetition or compensation (or what is known as qadaa' in
Arabic), is not obligatory for the reason that prayers are obligatory
at a particular time, and once that time has elapsed, there is no way
to offer them. However one ought to seek Allah's forgiveness and offer
as many nawafil (voluntary prayers) as possible.
As for fasting-yes, if a person was a Muslim at the time they became
obligatory and he did not fast, then their performance is required,
accompanied by feeding of a poor Muslim for everyday of fast that was
not observed during previous years. What is required is always a day
for a day-no more, no less.
Example 1: A person did not fast three days of Ramadan of the year
1400 A.H., and five days ofRamadan of the year 1401 A.H., all out of
negligence. He must now fast 8 days, and feed eightpoor Muslims in
compensation.
Example 2: A girl reached puberty in the Ramadan of the year 1400 A.H.
but out of shame and modesty did not inform anyone of her
menstruation, and, rather,continued fasting say for eight days of her
period. Thereafter, she repented. She would then be required to redo
eight days of fasting.
It may also be pointed out here that this is the predominant position.
A minority opinion is that the ruling for fasting is the same as that
for the prayers, i.e., there is no qadaa' (making up) for fasting in
the case of a person who did not fast and did not have a valid reason
for not fasting.
As for he who did not offer the obligatory zakah, it is necessary for
arepentant to them for all previous unpaid years, forit is, from one
angle, Allah's right, while from another, the poor people'sright.