been a longtime love story of mine. 10 years, yes 10 years! first
crush, first love. my friend, my brother, my best friend, my crush
andmy LOVE. He is really nice, gentleman and handsome guy. He is the
best friend of my brother. and i got his attention and we are close
together. he knows that i have a crush on him. Because all of my
classmates knows it. i am very grateful to be with him as a friend.
but timesand years come a long. my feelings for him been stronger. He
had a girlfriend at that time, but because i know my limitation being
his friend i respect his feelings. Being in love with him i decide to
be a good friend. a friend always there for him.
he broke up with his girlfriend and nothing change between us. we text
morning to night. until one day he text me"WILL YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?"
but i reply to him. NO! i don't know why i said NO to him that day.
but all i know is i don't want to rush everything to us.
Years again for both of usto have no communication. and one day he
told me that all of his family are going to japan to be with there
father. I am very sad about what he said to me. but he said that we
can send email and call toeach other.
year 2009... I am the mosthappiest girl in this world. why? because he
called me and he said that he is already here in Philippines and he
can't wait to see me. He also said in our conversation that he had
important to say to me and he want tobe with me.
I pray a lot to see him and be with him again. I ask my friend about
us and they said i should meet him.
I travel about hours just to be with him. I have a question in my mind
What is the important thing that he really need to say to me, just to
comeover here.
finally the moment I've been waiting for. I am with him and he smile
at me, we both happy. and when the time that we got chance to talk.
He said that he also in love with me... he doesn'tknow when it's
started but he got that feelings and then he wants to see me just to
say that to me. I cried because i can't expect that he can also like
me. kissed me that night. my first love holding me right now and then
kiss me. oh my God! i can't describe to allyou how happy i am.
and suddenly stop and talk again to me and said.
we could not be togetherand be my girlfriend.
my eyes can't imagine he would said that to me after he kiss me and
told me he loves me too...
3 reason why we cant be lover.
1. Because of my brother
2. Because of my parents
3. He live in Japan
My heart so glad that i know that he can also love me. but what is the
reason why he told me and we can't be...
after he go back to japan. i realize that it doesn't matter at all. as
long as i know that my first love also love me. even i can't call him
my boyfriend but i know if we are meant for each other the right times
comes.
2012 yes! this year... he said me message in my Facebook he said that
he going here this October and he also said that he is looking forward
to see me again. I ask him what his plan why he decide tocome back
here. He said again that he wants to see me.
he wants to see me again. i don't know whatis the meaning of that. and
i don't expect that hewould said anything about me. but i am very
excited to see him and talk to him personally like before.
my heart beats faster andi can't sleep because of that. September end
nowand soon he is here with me.
I wrote this because i want to end all of this because it's been years
and i realize that i can behappy and i can't g back to my high school
feelings that i am in love with him and now he is back again and what
for?
I'm not hoping...but i am happy to be his friend since then. He hurts
me so many times and i forget it all.
Glad that i have a wonderful feelings that i can share to all of you.
once that you finally saw the man for you and you know that he deserve
and worth for your love.. don't doubt and take risk.
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