met aman in my graduation 1st year. We both used to notice each other
in class and smile...soon we became friends and within five months he
said he loves me...I found out that he had a reputation of flirt and
my friends warned me to stay away from him...I tried to do that but my
heart Wudnt stop thinking about him....one luk of his and I melted...I
wanted to just forget about his past flirts nd girlfriends all the
rumors and just love him....he was smart humorous handsome caring
realistic focused and hardworking guy. I finally confessed to him that
I love him irrespective of his reputation.... Soon it was d talk of
the town....within a month I was scared to lose my gud reputation I
broke up.....and I broke into tears as well...I thought he would come
and ask me why did I broke up.....he didn't and that reassured that he
wasn't serious....soon I got myself busy wid studies and career and
met an ideal good boy for marriage and within two years we got married
to Amit ....a focused hardworking guy....but I couldn't love him the
way I have always wanted to....coz he is different...he is loyal to me
loves me but only until I live according to his standards....career
kids home family friends etc....after a year of marriage I met aman
again at a friends place ....one luk into his eyes and I was gone
flat....there has always bin a strange love in his eyes I felt
whenever he Luk at me....again we started seeing each other this time
we couldn't stop ourself from making love but we did not have
sex.....suddenly within four months I started feeling guilty nd
decided to stop everything....I broke up again! After two years he got
married....I came to know....I called up nd congratulated and v spoke
very formerly though he was very happy to talk to me.....I realized
that I should stop bothering him....after next 3 years I got his
contact on Facebook.....just Luke at his 6m old daughter and I cud see
the same eyes and smile which aman had....I was preg wid my second
child then....yet I called aman and we spoke like v had never
parted,....we spoke like very close friends sharing the lovely life v
both had as parents....our jobs...our kids....everything....a year
went by....almost after 8years of my marriage ..2 kids...I still felt
I love aman....how much ever friends talk about his reputation yet I
couldn't stop thinking about him the moment I hear a love song......he
came in my dreams and I used to run after him but before I cud hug
him....I used to wake up startled and panting ....I used to wonder y I
dream so much about him.....never thought about sex....never thought
about kissing him.....we were jus very gud friends yet those dreams
wud make me mad....
One day he called up and told me about his dreams.....I was shocked
how he had similar dreams about me.....that day we spoke for hours
together and realised that inspire of time distance ...coz v live in
different countries now ....inspire of being happy wid our own ill
family career spouse etc we both miss each other....and he told me
ships.....I still love you....like I always did....and to my surprise
I couldn't stop myself from saying the same....
Our spouse obviously know that v r jus close friends....v make sure
that v don't hurt them coz v don't want trouble in each others married
ly....v chat daily talk occasionally....met once 10 years after
college ....we were soo emotional that our hug soon turned into smooch
followed by love making....but again we didn't have sex....we jus
couldn't ...
Both of us believed that our relation doesn't need sex to xpress
love.....and that was such a bful moment.....
We hv loved each other since a decade wideout having to have each
others body....
I realised how wrong I was wen in college I doubted his intentions,,,,
Even today he is very nervous wen I sit close to him.....even if we r
at his home....
This speaks of his unconditional love....
I respect him ....his love for me and I respect myself too....coz I
know that even though its an emotional extra marital affair....we both
fulfill our duties....love our family....discharge our
responsibilities happily wid our spouses.....
Today I don't feel guilty...i don't doubt him.....I jus simply love
him.....want him to be happy always....so does he
We talk on phone share our crazes thoughts very frankly....talk bat
anything....yet v r totally in blissful love.....
Miles apart....yet in love....
Love you aman!!
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