world I can feel that I never be loved by other , I am a physically
handicapped that's why from the very young age I am ignore by other.
But I enjoy my life every place I love to make smileto other's face
it's my hobby .
So about love : now I am 25years old .my first love is high school she
is very cute as like a toy, I alwayssee her from a corner of class,
other always ignoreme that's why I was always unhappy but when I saw
her I get a area to smile :) , I see her upto 3years after that I feel
that I have to say herthat I love her but I was afraid also about that
if she reject me that's why Iwas take a step to make her friend and I
make herfriend very close friend , slowly slowly I try to know her
care her but still afraid to say that I love her .after a year I make
my self to say her :). I never date a girl that's why I search in net
how to take dress for a date , base on a blog writer I take some dress
and go to her in a park .
I was very uncomfortableI had a cycle by which I went that park she
also came and we together set on a branch , I gave her a flower and
said my feelings...
But may be I forgot that I am a handicap she reply me that "I know you
love me but don't mind like others I have also a dream that my life
partner should be a goodand good-looking and I don't want a handicap
person as my life partner" and she left me and left the park , I don't
said her anything even not a sound . after that she loved a boy who is
the best boy in our school . slowly slowly I cut from her and back to
my old life and give mind to the study .
After 2years.
The high school is over I still wait for her and still see her but
never go to in front of her . I take my life about computer engineer
when I left my hometown I meat to her Isaid " if you ever feel about
me something please call me I will wait for you" after that I left my
hometown.
after a year my friend callme and said me that he get married with a
rich and good man , I just smile and get to my life where I have no
one to share my feelings . Some time I got that much alone that I
sleep and askmy self why I am like that?. When every body of myhostel
went out with there I stay in hostel or go out with no one , after a
while it become a habit that I say alone in everywhere. I accept it
that no one never love me that's why I get back to study with full
force, I got degree get a good job but still alone.
Like this I played my life . but my life is change in 2012 June , In
2012 June Iget a call from a girl Name Anan she said me that she know
me we become friends a good friends and in really I washappy most that
someone come in my life my big smile come back I was very happy .
After one month she said me that she love me I was just like blast but
I don't accept because I had a doubt that no one love me than why she
love me? , I investigate about her somewhat than I get that she is my
best friend's ex girlfriend thenI directly say this meter toher and my
best friend they both reply that he has no objection and she said me
all truth , after that I accept her and I become happy that I get her
:).
But that is not end after amonth again a call came in my no I received
in other side was Anan and my best friend she said " Sorry yer I
played with you because he left me that's why I choose you to play
this game , and according to my plan he jealous and for that he again
come to me , please don't get angry and Sorry" I don't say anything
and just switch off the mobile and change the no and never go to them
.
Now I get news that they live happily and they loveeach other .
If love is not on conditionthen why this happen ? whenever my birthday
come I have no one to with me is midnight and say I am here for you .
I know I have nothing to love but I have a heart who can love most .
and please handicap person also have a heart they can also love , if
you give a smile they feel happy , so please be with them :),
Thank you :) Be happy and Be good :)
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