Story - I miss him so bad

I am yet just only 19 yearsold, but I was with this guy for going on
10 yearson and off. We started going out when I was 10 and he was 11.
And we have been back and forth to each other (even after we never
hadanything to do with eachother for the two years that i was with
another guy, we still remained very close) I Love this guy, obviously.
And he is such a nice person, insideand out. I know we love each other
a lot. We just never talk about it.
We hook up every other weekend. But that just isn't enough for me. I
really want to be "his girl" once and for all! But...I think he is
with another girl...which makes my heartache!
He knows that I Love him lots....but what if he lovesthis other girl
too..I am soconfused...somebody give me a little help on how I should
get to talking to my "childhood love"!!!!