Monday, November 5, 2012

Our parting

I want to tell you the story of our parting.
Not about the parting when you are abandoned and you think nothing
else matters anymore.
I am living in another country for quite some time now, but home is
always where the heart is, so every summer I pack my bags and leave
for my favorite country. Last summer was different.
I felt grown-up and wise,attractive and a woman who left the child
years behind. I wasn't ready to allow yet another love disappointment
and unrequited love, as I did last summer. I decided to fill up my
vacation with friends, parties, discos and short flirts. But I was
only thinking I could do that. To my surprise I metthe love of my
life. Mutual friends introduced us.
For a long time I was wondering what to do, shall I love him, shall I
try to avoid him and get rid of my thoughts about him...? I like him,
Ch. wonmy trust. Made me feel like a princess. I fell madly in love.
I felt him so close. We spent all our time together. We went to bars,
parties, discos….We shared everything, we talked of life, we
laughed….I felt he was not only my boyfriend but my closest friend as
well! He was so tender, we had amazing nights together, passionate
kisses, he gave me a love so crystal clear that only time could stand
in its way.
Before I knew it summer was over and I had to go back.
The last couple of days I felt confused and insecure.
I didn't know what would happen with my life. I didn't know what to
say, or to plan…..It wasthe same with Ch.
Our last two dinners were silent.
We sat and watched and sighed. I tried to start a conversation, to
seem light-hearted, as I usually am, but it wasn't possible.
I wanted to tell him how much I loved him, wanted to say that I
can'tlet this end so suddenly, but I lacked the words.
Something wouldn't let me say it. I was asking myself "What if he abandons meŠ°"?
During my last night withhim I cried a lot. We spent it alone. It was
all so romantic. He gave me a gift that touched me and I knew he cared
about me.
And then he said: "My dear, I will be waiting foryou"! Suddenly all my
being lit up and shined. He walked with me to theentrance.
My heart ached when I turned and saw the man of my dreams leave.
But I knew we will be together again next summer.
This was not parting as the one everyone has feltat least once in
life; the one that hurts so much because you realize you are not loved
any more. This was a parting that might even wake up an even bigger
love. Some of you might say that relationships like these are
impossible, because itis hard to wait and love someone and be so far
away. I thought the samething before it all happened to me.
I spoke to Ch. Today. Within two weeks we will be together again!:)
He sounded so happy!
I love you, sweetheart!

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And Allah Knows the Best!

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M NajimudeeN Bsc- INDIA

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