hearts of many others who knew him.
You were with me all the time for so long. You were always there – my
best friend… I couldn't find out whether you were more than a friend.
I unroll the reel of my memories.
Is it me – this child over there…up in the mountains where dreamsrise
up to Heaven? I lovedto wake up with the sound of birds; to take a
deep breath of the cold air and to see the blue eyes on the bed next
to me… bluer than the sky. There is so much laughter, so many dreams
gathered… up in the attic. You were the one who knew what I felt,
without even talkingto you. I have always questioned myself how you do
this. Where did you get strength never toget upset? You were the
"moving spirit" of the company; you were everything… an angel who had
descended fromthe sky to bless us with his warmth and goodness. But
why for so short? WHY?
I remember the nights bythe fire when we were lying on the grass and
mylife was significant. I was wondering why the stars sparkle in the
dark and you told me it was not to forget them.
And you were the one who compensated for myfooleries. But you never
blamed me for this. I could tell you everything and I knew you'll
understand.
It was the end of the summer. The end of the season was near and we
had to set apart. You were leaving; like you did each year and I had
to let you go. The last night we were sitting on the porch; you looked
at me and I got lost somewhere in your deep blue eyes. I was
speechless and you gave me the first kiss. Then, you gave me the
biggest present in my small world. All became quiet when you left. The
forest started crying and I wandered why.
One morning I woke up from the pouring rain that was pattering on
theceiling; my heart began to bleed. I didn't know why. I ran
downstairs and I saw them. I saw their faces and I felt theirawkward
emptiness.
God had taken you from me… forever. This damn car-accident - somewhere
far away in Spain, where the other world of yours was. I didn't want
to believe that someone could be that cruel and kill an angel… the
soul of a child. There are no wordsto describe this pain, this
emptiness, and these insults after the accident, and these fake looks
of compassion… for you! Thousands of smiles werebroken into thousands
ofpieces. Life was ahead of me and that didn't matter to me. When part
of me was gone; when memories brought only the pain of the loss.
Oh, how much I miss you even after five years. I'll never let me
forget you because you live in my heart – in that tiny heart of a
child who loved you endlessly.
I wish more people knewyou. Now I have other friends, I've changed,
I'vemaybe grown up. There are people who love me and I keep looking
for a small part of you in them – a small part of your laughter.
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