message to people who are in love. Its time for me to decide something
in life and move on but not able to.
I joined a college in 2005 for studying a paramedical course. I was a
simple guy who was scared to talk to girls. So spent most of myfirst
year life talking to guys (as its a paramedicalcourse class consisted
of 6 guys and 35 girls). In my second year i met a junior named Shh...
(i dont want to disclose hername). She had a beautiful smile
(althoughshe was not fair, she was so beautiful), and most important
is her dance. She is the best in her dance that she was quite famous
in whole city. Initially I had not given much attention to her. But
one day I just saw her crying and tears rolling out of her eyes with
two of her friends trying to console her. I felt like talking to her
and just convinced her saying the cry wont suit her face. Smile suits
her face far better.
I don knw what happened that night she messaged me saying thanks. How
she got my number and got to knw about me is still unknown. Thus we
started chatting and we became close. They had agroup of 5 ppl (2 guys
and 3 girls)and because of her I too became one of them. Gradually I
felt she might be the best person to share my life. Because she
understands me very well and cares for me. Finally a midnit she
messaged asking for spending her life with me. I agreed.
Life was cool for 2yrs. Weunderstood each other very well. My mother
wasalso happy to have such agirl as her daughter in law. My friends
and whole college were speaking that WE BOTH are the best couples and
made for each other.
But I didnt expect life willturn in reverse. In my final year due to
my mother's health problems, I had to approach a first year junior
girl's father to help me out. As he was inthe same department. To
short the story, she (her name in short B.S)spoke to all her friends
and my friends in a way that we Iam having a relation with her. These
matters were going without knowing to me. Finally my dearest Shhh came
n asked me if its true. I toldShh the truth that :"I loveonly you, and
you are my wife. And my love is true for you".
But her curiosity increased and she startedasking my friends. My great
friends believed B.Sand not me. Everyone suspected my love towards
Shh. And with such good friends and love still I spent my last days of
college lonely. Finally Shh told me "I wont believe you. When so many
ppl say this things, accept the truth that you dated her too". Iwas in
a shock. My love, whom I accepted already as wife was not believingme.
I had to leave the city for my post graduation. During this mean time
I tried talking, convincing Shh about the matter. No improvements. Now
its 2012, and B.S got married to some guy in 2011 and is leading a
happy life. Still I love Shh the same I used to do. One
misunderstanding made us apart. 2012, we are in same college, where
she is doin her post graduation and I m staff in the same college. And
she behaves just as ifI am a unknown person which hurts a lot.
I can never accept any other girl in her place. The love which I had
to give to Shh for throughout my life is left within me. I never
thought her as my girlfriend. Always I took care of her, loved her as
my wife. Life has become so lonely. Friends who ditched me are not
with me, my love lost the trust on me.
I am happy in my life, butjust that its a lonely life. My message to
people who are in love is, "TRUSTand UNDERSTANDING EACHOTHER are
important along with love and care for a relation". This is what life
taught me. Eventhough Shh is far from me, still my love for her
isalive. I can never forget her.
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