She got married a second time for the purpose of going back to her first husband

I was married before for 4 years I have one child withmy first
husband. we got divorced 2 years ago 3 times. I got married again to a
second husband in order to get back with my first husband because I
was still in love with my first husband and we have a child together.
My second husband did not know I wanted to marry him so I can get back
with my second husband. My second marriage was not pre planed by my
first husband nor my second husband. it was just my intention to get
married again to get divorced and get back with my first husband.
before I got married to mysecond husband my first husband said to me
if I ever get divorced again hewould marry me. so I got married to my
second husband and after being married to my second husband I starting
making problems in our marriage for my second husband to give me a
divorce. we did have intercourse. after I asked him to give me a
divorce. he refused to give me a divorce. so I left his house to go to
my parents house. we have got separated for 3 months he did not call
me but I realized I made a mistake and for the fear of allah I called
him and apologized to him and asked him not to give me a divorce even
thought I really wanted a divorce from him. so as time went by kept
prayingto allah and just for allah to do what was best for me.
after 5 months of being separated I heard he was saying negative stuff
about me so I called him and said bad things to himand asked him to
give me a divorce again. and then after a month later he called my
father and told my father he divorced me and had no intention of ever
getting back with me.
I have been divorced from my second husband for about one year now.
and I want to get back with my first husband whom I havea child with
at the age of 4. is it okay for me to get back with my first husband?
does our religion allow for me to get back with my first husband?
Praise be to Allah.
If a thrice-divorced womangets married to another husband, but has the
intention of getting divorced from him so that she can go back to the
firsthusband, there is a difference of opinion among the fuqaha'
concerning that. Some of them regard it as coming under the heading of
tahleel (a marriage aimed at making it permissible for the woman to go
back to her first husband), which is haraam, and some of them say that
her intention does not affect anything.
See the answer to question no. 131290 , when it says that the opinion
that this is haraamis more likely to be correct,and that if the woman
gets divorced she does notbecome permissible for the first husband.
You did right to repent and go back to your husband and ask him not to
divorced you, because itis not permissible for a woman to annoy her
husband or ask him for a divorce (talaaq or khula') unless there is a
reason that makes it permissible to do that, such as if he is
mistreating her.
But if this husband divorces you of his own accord or in response to
your request because of his mistreatment and his speaking harshly to
you, without the intention of making it permissible for you to go back
to your first husband, then it seems that once your 'iddah has ended
it will become permissible for you to go back to your first husband,
with a new marriage contract.
And Allah knows best.