fast on the last Ramadan and i hated god during that time i thought
that he was the cause of all my miseries do i still have a chance to
enter Islam again? and will god forgive me or ami doomed?.
Praise be to Allaah.
Firstly:
We ask Allah, may He be exalted, to accept your repentance, forgive
you your sins, open your heartto faith and guidance, andto keep away
from your mind all negative thoughts of your Lord andCreator, for
there is nothing stranger than a person thinking negatively of his
Lord when He has blessed him and bestowed upon him thousands of
blessings, the greatest of which are the blessing of Islam and the
blessing of reason. ForHe has chosen him from among His creation and
has not made him a disbeliever; He has blessed him by making him a
human who thinks rationally and ponders things, unlike animals
andthose who are insane. AndHe has created in his bodyand soul
blessings of which no one knows the number except Allah.
One of Allah's blessings is that He tests His slave with some
calamities in order to expiate some of his bad deeds, or to increase
him in status, or to remind him that he willreturn to Him and stand
before Him. How often has a person turned awayfrom Allah, then
calamity was the means that caused him to turn back to Allah and
repent, and ultimately turned out to be a means that led to happiness
and joy.
When a person is certain that Allah, may He be exalted, is more
merciful to him than anyone else, he will be content with His decree,
will bear with patience that with which He tests him, and will hope
for relief granted by Him.
Think about the blessings that Allah has bestowed upon you; this will
increase your gratitude towards Him and will make you recognise His
bounty. Remember that no calamity befalls you but there is something
good for you in it.
The Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: "No
exhaustion, sickness, worry, grief, harm or distress befalls a
believer, not even a thorn that pricks him, but Allah will expiate
some of his bad deeds thereby."
Narrated by al-Bukhaari, 5642; Muslim, 2573
At-Tirmidhi (2399) narrated that Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased
with him) said: The Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace of Allah
be upon him) said: "Calamities will continue to befall the believing
man or woman affecting himself or his child or his wealth, until he
will meet Allah with no sin on him."
At-Tirmidhi (2398) and Ibn Maajah (4023) narrated that Sa'd ibn Abi
Waqqaas (may Allah be pleased with him) said: I said: O Messenger of
Allaah, which people are most severely tested? He said: "The Prophets,
then the next best and the next best. A person is tested according to
his religious commitment. If he is steadfast in his religious
commitment, he will be tested more severely, and if he is shaky in his
religious commitment, his test will be according to his commitment.
Trials will continue to afflict a person until they leave him walking
on the earth with no sin on him."
Classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in Saheeh at-Tirmidhi.
Secondly:
If a person feels resentment towards Allah,may He be exalted, in his
heart, or is angry with His decree or thinks negatively of Him – Allah
forbid – then let him renew his Islam and utter the Shahaadatayn (twin
declaration of faith), and let him strive hard and dorighteous deeds.
He does not have to makeup the fasts that he deliberately omitted,
because that is an act of worship that is connected to a specific
time; if a person deliberately omitted it at the time it was due, it
would not be accepted from him after that. Moreover, Islam erases what
came before it of sins.
Shaykh Ibn 'Uthaymeen (may Allah have mercy onhim) was asked: What is
the ruling on the Muslim who for many years did not fast Ramadan, even
though he did some of the other obligatory duties, and he had no
impediment that was keeping him from fasting?Does he have to make up
the fasts if he repents?
He replied:
The correct view is that hedoes not have to make upthe fasts if he
repents, because in the case of every act of worship that is connected
to a specific time, if a person deliberately delays it without an
excuse, then Allah will not accept it from him.
Based on that, there is no benefit in making it up. But he has to
repent to Allah, may He be glorified and exalted, and do a lot of
righteous deeds. And whoever repents, Allah will turn to him in mercy.
End quote from Majmoo' Fataawa ash-Shaykh Ibn 'Uthaymeen, 19/87
We ask Allah to increase you in faith and guidance.
And Allah knows best.
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